Most people I know want to live better, eat better, lose weight, have more energy, feel better about themselves… and the list keeps going. I am absolutely one of those people. The worst part is that I know what I should be doing I just don’t. It is so much easier to stay with our bad habits rather than implement new ones. to reach for the easy quick foods rather than the healthy alternatives.
For those of you who know me you know I lost about 20lbs back in January-February over about 6 weeks. I also felt good. My mental health improved, I had more energy, my focus was better, my skin completely clear. It was great. I felt great. And you can see that I am using past tense on some of those things. I haven’t gained back much weight (only about 2-3lbs since mid February), but over the past week I noticed that I had zero motivation, zero energy, my mental health has gone down and I just feel worn out and burnt out. I’m not as happy as I was just a few weeks ago. So I started looking at what had changed. I had slowly let myself slip. I had changed the way I was eating again. I wasn’t paying attention to what was going into my mouth. I stopped caring about my meals and I stopped planning meals for myself and for my family. My children are suffering because I lost sight of my goals. Our fridge is empty and I have no idea what we are going to eat tonight let alone tomorrow or the next day. So that means a run through McDonald’s on the way home or hotdogs and mac and cheese. (Talk about a guilt trip – and now I feel even more depressed because I am failing my children. I know you can relate, mom guilt, the struggle is real). Don’t get me wrong, none of that is the end of the world nor all that horrible when it happens once in a while. But when it becomes the norm and your fridge is honestly empty of any food to create a home cooked meal it really begins to take a toll.
So I looked in the mirror and once again committed to taking care of myself and my family. I said no more!!! I know there is better out there and I deserve it! So I started my journey again. A new 30 days to healthy living group started yesterday using the ARbon and I jumped on board. This program is a great way to hit the reset button. It helps focus you on what you are eating. Why you are eating. What is serving your body and what is not. I love it! The best part about it….IT WORKS! when you are committed to the program and really interact with the group you find encouragement, knowledge and feel empowered to take control of your choices. You find it isn’t as intimidating, as hard, as challenging as you always thought. You find a community of other people who are also striving for something better and are there to support you. Yesterday was day 1 and I am feeling so optimistic and excited for the next 4 weeks. I can’t wait to share with you this journey. I will update, take pictures, share my struggles, and hopefully laugh with you over the next 4 weeks (and beyond) as I commit to eat clean, detox my body, and move forward with a healthier lifestyle for myself and my family. Leave me comments, ask me questions, get excited!! Changes are possible!! it is possible to feel better and be better!!
OK time for the baseline. I am going to be completely transparent in where I stand now and where I want to be. Right now I am 5ft tall and weigh 159lbs. NOT GOOD. not horrible but not good. my youngest child is 16 months old and I am struggling to lose the weight around my middle. This is the biggest problem for me. I just want to lose the weight in the middle ( I am sure that that goal will shift over time but for now that is my focus). I also want to make sure that what I am eating to fuel my body is actually serving that purpose. I am going to list below my measurements at the start of this journey ( I took these yesterday morning before starting) I will share updates and pictures as we go but for now here are my numbers.